I have a purring cat seated on my lap. It's the only warm thing about me. I woke up this morning with a headache caused by someone/thing punching my jaw all last night.
Oh wait, it was probably me. :( I wonder what the dreams were about that caused me to grind so much (thank goodness for that stupid mouth guard, otherwise my teeth would be worse than they are). In any case, the DH bought me some generic tylenol and blocked the dogs in the bedroom and slept it off. In 45 min, I felt much better but tired. Not the day has progressed and I have spent most of it looking at the stupid internet and feeling cold. My tea is gone, but there is a whole pot of it in the kitchen if I could just tear myself away from this cat on my lap. It's the last of the Sunset Cinnamon tea that DH bought me last year as a happy suprise. It's good and just what this day needs.
I suppose a hot shower might liven things up, and putting laundry away. That's always really exciting, right? Yeah, I thought so. My driving lesson is at 12.30 today...so I should be ready by then to possibly cause a huge accident. .... I'm just kidding. I am sure it will be fine. Depending on how that goes I might scedule for my road test right now, apparently you have to schedule these things 12 weeks in advance.
I have decided my questions of the week are: Do you believe god cares about your individual concerns (Great comments btw, Lori and Jen), Do you believe in Free Will, and Do you believe in fate/destiney.
I really need to work on my writing story. I have only two sentences down, and that ain't gonna cut it. But after the lesson, I have monkey bar and then my three hour class at MATC where I hope to learn more than just background knowledge. Tim has been practicing his french all week. I almost felt guilty for not having any actual homework. ;) Almost.
This week has gone by fast...and cold. I have started to think about the winter clothes nestled away in the basement, and bringing them back out. I also think I need to go through my closet again and get rid of things I don't wear...or at least put them inthe basement? The problem with that is, that one wears T-shirts all year...under the other clothes. Layered like.
Okay. Hot shower should revive me and get me excited about this day.
posted by hadjare @ 11:18 AM
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I'm kind of ashamed to admit that I don't know a lot about philosophy, but I remember being transfixed by rain drops on the car window of my mom and dad's chevy station wagon and deciding that this is kind of like how I view life. I don't remember how old I was.
Anyway, I sat there trying to figure out which path the drops would take to get to the bottom of the window. Sometimes, I'd watch them race and try to figure out which one would get to the finish line (end of window) first. Sometimes, the drop would just stop and hesistate like it didn't know what path to take, and then it would just go.
I don't know the science behind it whether it is surface tension, mass, volume, ect and a combo of those things that determine where the drop will go, but I figure that our lives are kind of like that. We don't really have a set path, but it is limited in a way by what makes us up, our influences, and what road we travel. Like the raindop we each have our own forces moving us in a particular direction. Sometimes we are propelled forwards, and sometimes we hesistate.
Wow, that sounds incredibly cheesy, but that was my teenage thought and I still kind of believe it. I believe we do have choice, but it's kind of limited in factors.
My psych book had a similar thought on nature vs. nurture and behavior. Is there biological determinism or free will? I liked how one there was that it was a combo of the both. Genes could remain dormant until activated by your life experiences, and your life experiences could be affected by your genetic code. I think they described it like one of those marble in a maze games.
Does that make sense?
I belive, like any parent, God cares about our concerns, our feelings, our questions and wishes. But like any responcible and wise parent, he chooses to bless us when he feels the time is right. When we will benifit from it the most, and when a lesson or reward is needed or deserved. Wehave no idea the cosmic battle between good and evil. I think that here on earth is where the power is distributed equally, and we are responcible to choose the path. God has made it clear in what he has tought us as to how we should conduct ourselves in this life; however, the devil is always present to present his temtation and evil barganing. Sometime he disguises himself as good, only to change into something evil later. Sometimes he is just evil and thats where we see his power and corruption plainly (Abused children, rape and pillage.) I belive that sometime there was an understanding regarding this halfway point we exsist on, that both evil and good share an equal space. This is our test for the here after. Our advantage is the guidelines plainly put before us in the bible and God's teaching. it is our choice to follow that path, and make the decisions we make, all of which form who we are and where we will go. It sounds churchy and whatever I guess but I know that it will all make sense later. We have a starting point, and a destination, everything is up to us to get from one point to the other of our choosing.
I belive, like any parent, God cares about our concerns, our feelings, our questions and wishes. But like any responcible and wise parent, he chooses to bless us when he feels the time is right. When we will benifit from it the most, and when a lesson or reward is needed or deserved. Wehave no idea the cosmic battle between good and evil. I think that here on earth is where the power is distributed equally, and we are responcible to choose the path. God has made it clear in what he has tought us as to how we should conduct ourselves in this life; however, the devil is always present to present his temtation and evil barganing. Sometime he disguises himself as good, only to change into something evil later. Sometimes he is just evil and thats where we see his power and corruption plainly (Abused children, rape and pillage.) I belive that sometime there was an understanding regarding this halfway point we exsist on, that both evil and good share an equal space. This is our test for the here after. Our advantage is the guidelines plainly put before us in the bible and God's teaching. it is our choice to follow that path, and make the decisions we make, all of which form who we are and where we will go. It sounds churchy and whatever I guess but I know that it will all make sense later. We have a starting point, and a destination, everything is up to us to get from one point to the other of our choosing.
Jess
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