Oh. How do I start?
I mean. I knew it would happen. Someday. I know logically, it's something that happens to everyone....eventually. I just didn't think it would happen to me. Not for another four years at least. Also, I thought it would happen gradually.
On our way back from walking dogs at Lake Geneva --- I was looking in the mirror. Actually I found a fork and decided to comb my bangs -- (it was clean...sheesh), so there I was combing and suddenly I glimpsed something.
White....wire-like. I gasped and slammed the mirror shut. Tim swerved slightly and said "What?"
"Oh no," I managed and reopened the mirror, slowly. Carefully I pulled my hair aside and there it was...a white hair. Not grey. WHITE!
"It's not a grey," said Tim. "It's probably just dirty."
I pulled it out. "This isn't dirt, darling," I replied and examined it closer. It was so clear, and crystal it could reflect light to the moon. I am sure of it.
"It's probably just a fluke," Tim consoled me, stifling laughter. I desperately rooted around looking for more. There...in the back. I showed it Tim. He saw it right away.
"Purge it!" he yelled. I pulled it out...it wasn't just white at the end, it was almost all converted to white with a little hold out light brown at the end. I put both of the white hairs into my journal. Feeling a little shaken.
I expected it to grey. To slowly turn gray. Not to have a bunch of WHITE hairs show up. And tell....where is the research on this? Why does the whole thing turn white so fast? How does it get thick and wiry? How does this happen? Why hasn't there been a documentary on this? A camera fixed on hair to see how it changes so quickly. Where are the clinical studies? How can we stop this?
I came home and after a bath, and bunch of Hallmark movies to console myself, I find - to my horror that there were THREE more. Two more at the temple where I found the first one, and a second in the back - actually Tim found it. It was a little growing white hair. Is that the answer? But why wouldn't I have noticed this sooner? I mean come on, this is in the front. It's not hidden. How did it escape my attention this long? It must has magically happened over night. I am sure of it.
And white? Seriously. White? What happened to grey?
I was supposed to go grey with grace. But I gotta tell you, after yanking them out (a solution I can't possibly continue) I am finding it hard to find the gump to do that. I can't dye it...I am still very allergic to hair dye. At least I was three years ago...am I ready to retest that theory? Oh man.
What a stupid Christmas present. :(
And Tim's advice? "You're getting older Laura."
posted by hadjare @ 6:37 PM
5 Comments:
I think that salt and pepper look is cool and dignified. That is what I have been telling myself, anyway.q
I've been getting white-and-greys for years now. I, too, wondered how the entire hair turns all of a sudden, rather than just turning from the root and gradually growing out.
I didn't know you were allergic to hair dye. Have you tried the low-peroxide colors like Natural Instincts? Lowen or Sigrid might have some advice, and be able to help you with allergy tests so you don't have to buy a package you might not be able to use.
But really, I think you'll be one of those people who's beautiful with thick, shiny dark-and-white hair, or eventually all-white. Much nicer than dingy grey.
-SECP
Sigrid did tell me once that there were some dyes that she could try...but then I would have to go in for a patch test, and then wait and see. I have tried Natural Instincts before with the same itchy-oh-my-god-I'm-gonna die reaction.
I guess the grey/white thing hits home because I wanted a kid before that happened. It is kind of nice to hear stories about other women who have had their hair revolt -- it makes me feel a little better.
Yep, I've found a couple of those myself, and yes, I too have yanked them out. It's been a while since I've seen one. My mom was grey at 20, I never remember her without grey hair. She always dyed it. Now it is pure white and she actually buys this bluing stuff to make it really really white. Since I have only found a couple of those white nastys, I can only assume that I got my hair from my dad as well, who is 64 years old and still has brown hair. The one thing I actually am willing to inherit from my dad besides never having to shave my legs. The only thing I got from mom was my eyes.
jess
it's interesting.... i've had a talk about grey hair with a number of folks in the last few months. (I've had a few grey hairs ---like 5--- since I was 25). Turns out that I am one of the (relatively few) who would *rather* go white than grey... white is all shiny and sparkly and potentially striking! I guess silver would be OK with me, too... but grey.... although i love wearing grey, having grey hair seems dull & flat....
~L
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