Thanks for the encouraging thoughts ladies.

The appointment with the lactation consultant was tiring yet again. I made the mistake of not taking tylenol before going to stave off the mild headache I had acquired so of course that wasn't awesome. :P Anyway.

--I got lectured for reducing my pumping. :( She said I need to do it at least 4-5 times a day. Well, I guess it's a good thing I found the box of freezer milk bags that I think Jen passed onto me. I'll have a ton of frozen milk for the day that Morella decides she'll take a bottle again.

-We got a new bottle to try out called the Haberman. Yeah, I guess we'll see if it works tonight. It's nice to at least have one more option since she won't take any other bottle or do finger feeding. I'll let you know if it works. The bottle was originally made for cleft palate children or those who experience sucking issues. She also said that women who go back to work after breastfeeding for 12 weeks needed help transitioning back to bottle.

-The biggest and most momentous breakthrough -- was that she latched on without the nipple shield on both for a few seconds - minute. Hurray! She was also super fussy and wouldn't eat well, wouldn't eat with the shield and of course made it look like all the work we had done was for nothing. :( We think it was because she was constipated and really needed to poop since it had been over 24 hours since the last poopy diaper. The consultant said that is normal for breastfed babies to go for awhile without a poopy diaper though and books be burned!

Morella wasn't going to let us down though, because halfway though the appointment the dams broke loose. I watched in horror as yellow seedy poop started to drip down the nice lady's blue sweater and swooped in to catch it with a nursing pad I was holding. She blew through that diaper and two more .... and of course lost the whole ounce on weight that we had fed her.

After that she ate better.

-So we went home, I took some tyenol, drank some gatoraide and snuggled on the couch with the Bit for a couple hours. I think the horomones might be wearing off. That would make sense considering I had a massive case of the baby blues yesterday. There was a stretch where I cried for 2 hours straight. I have been doing stupid things...like forgetting the diaper bag to the appointment, leaving out frozen lasagna in the basement to unfreeze and mold, and dumping a whole beverage into the couch to name a few. We also lost of the bottles...I have no idea where it went! Anyway. Tim talked me down and ordered some food and eventually I felt better.

I hate baby blues.

Tim wants to do something so I am going to hold baby. Incidentally she latched on to the boob and sucked nice and strong and swallowed for 10 minutes before falling asleep again. :( I guess we'll see how the night goes. I wish she would eat longer and drink more than an the one ounce I think she is getting at a time. Anyway, it was cool that did it once! Hopefully this is the start of something good and she won't back slip TOO much.