So I got a letter from my Mom today telling me how ashamed she is of me calling my brother a retard and then went on to explain how bright, smart and capable he struggled through high school and graduated. Okay fine. I was angry and went overboard in calling him names. However, her only defense for his being the way he is is because (can you guess?): he's lazy.

Yeah. I guess lazy is a medical condition that I should respect because he can't help himself. Not only that, but it's one that I should financially support even though he'll do his best to fuck it up.

She also said "He looked up to you."

Well if he did then there is no evidence that looking up to me did any good in his life. He might has well look up to some celebrity. If this is what being a role model produces, then I don't want to be a role model.

Anyway. I guess I have a few days to think about it. My Mom and that family are the sort of folks that like to hold a grudge. I hate that I am constantly put on a different level than they are where they expect so much more. I don't want it.

Yeah. So of course you know how I feel right now, I did finish the afgan and totally don't want to send it now for Mother's Day, and I feel slightly bad that I would like to use this an excuse to not talk to them for months at a time. Starting now.